BROKENNESS

Often times when we hear the word “broke” our minds go straight to an empty pocket or something that loses its whole form and is in pieces or shattered lol not forgetting broken heart. But let’s do this together; imagine yourself holding a wine glass filled with wine and then in a blink it slips from your grip and it lands on the floor, how does it look? Broken pieces of glass right? Does it still look like the glass you want to drink from? So then my question is, does it mean you and I must look like the broken glass?

The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit;  A broken and a contrite heart, O God, You will not despise. (Psalm 51:17)

I believe brokenness has to do with God’s way of using trials, challenges, agony, pain and toil to reduce our outer man (canal man) in order for our inner man (spirit) to be renewed. Using myself as an example during my first year in school I used to find ways and means to run away right after service not that I wasn’t a Christian or a believer of the things of God but on that faithful Tuesday service of which I remember so vividly Ps. Jeffery Preached on Brokenness and as I sat in church I wondered to myself “was I broken?” Before service ended I believe I came to an understanding of what it meant to be broken; something just broke within me and I wept for several hours as to why I couldn’t find the right words to explain it and all my attempts to stop the tears failed my roommate back then described it as ‘weird’ yet there was this inner peace I felt.

Whenever someone said they lost a parent or a close relative I didn’t know how they must have felt till I experienced it myself; hearing of my dad’s death a few minutes before writing my research methods paper my legs went numb. Something broke within me cause anyone who knew the relationship I had with Him wondered if he was married to my mum or me yeah we were that close, well life sucks sometimes. Since then every situation or challenge I found myself in I believed, God like a farmer was tendering my soul like a plant for growth ( Honestly I didn’t know the significance of all the trials up until now). During these times I had some unanswered questions “1. Can God only bless someone after he hurts the person deeply, 2.Must I necessarily be broken before I can see God’s glory, 3. If he is truly God why cause his Child to suffer pain countless times?”

“As for you, son of man, groan with breaking heart and bitter grief, groan in their sight. ”And when they say to you, ‘Why do you groan?’ you shall say, ‘Because of the news that is coming; and every heart will melt, all hands will be feeble, every spirit will faint and all knees will be weak as water. Behold, it comes and it will happen,’ declares the Lord GOD.” (Ezekiel 21:6)

This scripture makes me realize that, God actually is not directly involved in hurting any one but, He often allows us to go to the depth of what we often want most in life; than to wait for His Divine Will. After we hurt ourselves countless times because of our pride, God reaches out to us by His Grace and Mercy to raise us back to the place of blessings He had predestined our lives to be before the creation of the world. Wow! Do you know what this means? This means that being broken by any circumstance life brings our way is useful in the sense that God will use them to magnify you. coming to that point of truth that in-spite of your flaws or brokenness God can still make something out of you

14. So he said to them, “Out of the eater came something to eat, And out of the strong came something sweet.” (Judges 14:14)

So I’ll conclude by saying going through challenges doesn’t mean God is wicked but rather you enduring and prevailing through that pain and agony is a good report and a sure testimony. Hence nothing should reduce Christ in you. Instead holding onto His hands, standing strong and not comprehending. Brokenness shouldn’t leave you broken but rather it should be a phase that prepares you for restoration. Your moment of brokenness or isolation can serve a good purpose yes people may not want to associate themselves with you but trust God through that phase and press on… Father I pray for anyone who comes across this post and is hurting in one way or the other due to one challenge be it the loss of a loved one, a broken heart, loss of job, financial debts amongst many I pray you grant them grace and mercy to enable them go an extra day without giving up on themselves or their faith in you in JESUS NAME…AMEN

PLEASE READ & MEDITATE ON HEBREWS 11, LUKE 4:18  AND PSALM 18 :29-36 GOD BLESS YOU AS YOU DO SO.

HE FOUND ME WORTHY!

Lol Finally I get the courage to put my thoughts into words and share them on this platform, considering the years the idea to blog has been sitting idly in my mind like a book on a dusty shelf. The amusing part  is that the idea was t blog about fashion because I believed I had a style. Lol. There were times I created the blog and totally forgot the password, I created an account on Instagram (@fashionroom7) eager to share what I thought was appropriate to wear and whenever I chanced upon a fashion blog, I’ll go like “Oh yeah I want my blog to be like this and that”. However, recent happenings made me rethink and during one of my usual sleepless nights the idea came to me again but this time blog about JESUS “TO SPEAK OF HE WHO FOUND ME WORTHY” I discarded it but it kept coming back to mind. I thought it through on my way to work and while at work because I didn’t think of myself as someone who could do it.I got back home the same day and my first words to my cousin was “I am going to blog about JESUS”. I came across a quote by A.W. TOZER  that reads “What comes to mind when we think about God is the most Important thing about Us” and this scripture does exactly that for me when I think of God.

1 Oh give thanks to the LORD, call upon His name; Make known His deeds among the peoples. 2 Sing to Him, sing praises to Him; Speak of all His wonders. 3 Glory in His holy name; Let the heart of those who seek the LORD be glad…(Psalm 105:1-3)

I am nowhere close to a perfect Christian but the recurring challenging situations I find myself in for the past 2 years made me realize He loved me too much to leave me where I was. This confirmed one thing…

¹¹ For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.(Jeremiah 29:11) 

It is quite interesting the number of times this scripture has been used in church without me realizing its depth till now. This is just to say whatever it is you’re dealing with, it is not to cause you harm or evil but rather to bring you to an expected end. I am very excited and looking forward to sharing with you about JESUS and it is my humble and earnest prayer that whoever comes across this blog will decide to make a conscious effort to have a personal relationship with Jesus and know more about His wonderful works.

God bless You!