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Someone should have told me blogging wasn’t such an easy thing to do, because honestly I am the type who isn’t so open (trust me you’d have to go through so much just to get me to tell you what is going on with me) and here I am trying to share my life with you (total strangers and a few friends who don’t know me so well) but then at the back of mind is that scared little girl saying “don’t let them know too much”. I’m quite sure we all started the year with a lot positivism and hope. Well same goes for me, but then the past week has been very rough for me and I’ve been going through some down moments yet I’m hiding behind a smile when I can feel my heart hurting so much.

Each night I’d end up crying myself to sleep and that’s not much of a remedy because I’d be up again in an hour or less. So today at dawn I was up again, I decided to pray, in tears I managed to say “Father Lord please help me my heart hurts so much I can’t keep up why does it hurt so much? please help” And then He says “THANK ME” — I’m like God how? Imagine being hurt and going to your dad to report and he says thank me… Like How do I thank you when all I’m feeling is pain and hurt? After reflecting and thinking over and over again I said to myself let me thank him anyway He is God and he deserves more than that. Surprisingly on my way to work, the public transport I joined, a lady didn’t have enough money on her to pay the exact fare so after pleading with the mate countless times he agreed and took the little she had — sadly when she got off she didn’t thank him — he got so angry, complained bitterly till I got off (I am sure he complained till the last stop and probably won’t bother being kind to any passenger who found him/herself in the same situation). This has been the highlight of my day.

Usually a lot of disciplines come up when we (Christians) talk about becoming more like Jesus, things like prayer, Bible reading, fasting, soul winning (evangelizing), purity, long suffering, giving. What doesn’t come up enough  — and might have a bigger impact than we imagine — is developing an attitude of thanksgiving (gratitude). The word “gratitude” which means “thankfulness,” gratitude expresses deep, reciprocal appreciation for kindness received. Yesterday as I sat in church I wondered to myself; Why do we find it easy saying “thank you” to a friend because he/she gave us a gift yet forget to thank God every now and then.

The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever. (Psalm 23)

Yes Psalm 23 ( I remember we used to recite it every day during morning assembly in primary) It’s of no surprise that this is one of the most recognized passages in the Bible, I for one, have heard it countless times and the number of times that I have taken it for granted (Lord Have Mercy!). Meditating upon this all day I’m in awe — it’s beautiful, reassuring, and comforting. A total powerful reflection on God’s goodness.

Psalm 23 identifies many wonderful elements of God’s care that we might normally take for granted — or fail to recognize. David recognizes elements like God’s provision (I shall not want), spiritual renewal (he restores my soul), his discipline (your rod and staff, they comfort me), and his protection (you prepare me a table in the presence of my enemies)

We often take credit for precious moments of comfort, care, tranquility, and victory in our lives, but it’s important to recognize the loving hand of God’s providence in our lives. Everything happens because He allows it to happen.

23“He who offers a sacrifice of thanksgiving honors Me; And to him who orders his way aright I shall show the salvation of God (Psalm 50:23)

Thanksgiving is one of the most important elements of worship, give your thanks through worship ( I love worship, sometimes I’d feel myself trembling and weeping, sobbing — allowing myself to be vulnerable before God). Not only are we recognizing God for his amazing attributes like sovereignty and patience, we are learning to recognize their presence in our lives. This not only glorifies God, it trains us to be more aware of God’s care in our lives, even for the little things we take for granted daily, we don’t wake up by our strength, neither do we pay for the air we breathe.

You may probably not feel content where your life is right now or you wish things were different, you can still make the decision to be thankful. Thankfulness can make a big difference. Challenge yourself to a week of cultivating gratefulness. Start with a day, then 3 days before you know it, it’s a week already.

  • Before you get out of bed in the morning, thank God for three things in your life.
  • As you go through your day, recognize and vocalize gratitude for the traits and kindnesses of others.
  • At nightfall, offer up a prayer of thanksgiving for three challenges you’re experiencing or how your day went.

Develop the habit of thanking Him for both the Good and the bad. Give it a week and see how you feel. If you’re starting to see a difference, give it a month. It only takes about 21 days to make a habit. Stay Blessed!

Highly honored and privileged to give you thanks with my grateful heart words fail me, for both the good and bad my heart speaks for itself. Thank you Jesus. I am forever grateful.

Great Are You Lord. Good Good God.

“New Year, New Me”

…indeed time does fly, 7 days down 2017 already. I have been quite observant about the festive season and also asked a few friends about their resolutions and expectations for 2017. The usual excitement about the new year, it’s fascinating phrase “New Year, New Me” and the idea of Cutting people off seems to be on the lips of most people. Why don’t we see the new year as a continual progress of our journey here on earth? Rather we set out so many unrealistic ideas about the new year. We want our lives to be like everything we see on TV and social media and in the process living out on purpose.

So every single year, with a new year approaching, you hear most people say “New Year, New Me” and I’m wondering how come you’re a new person each year yet there’s still no visible progress in your life? Is there really a new you every new year? Honestly, this is not a phrase that I want to live by. I don’t see the need to go and start changing everything about myself just because we’re entering a new year. Not that I am perfect, because by no means am I. But I actually like the person that I am, and I don’t have the desire to ‘change’ myself. Entering this new year I don’t want to change myself, I want to better myself. My ultimate new years resolution for 2017, is to become the best possible version of myself (according to God’s will) that I can be aside it being My Year of Divine Manifestation.

Although it really wouldn’t hurt to include getting a gym membership (which I already started a few days ago let’s hope I don’t give up on it), expanding my savings account, and ditching some old habits for my resolutions this year, those are not my main focus. I want to dig below the surface and focus on something that really is important, and that is myself. If I have learnt anything over this past year it is that the only person you can truly count on aside God, is yourself. I learned just how important it is to take care of yourself in 2016 (To constantly pick up yourself after every low moment pressing on and holding on to Christ). You are in control of your happiness, the way your life ends up, and the ultimate person that you are. 

I’m at a good place in my life, where I have a better understanding of who I am, and who God wants me to be. But I also know that there is always room for a little self improvement, and you will never stop growing as a person. Well, I am making a list of resolutions I want to live by to make sure I am the best possible version of myself this new year;

  • Speaking of growing as a person, I want this to be a year of growth. I want to grow from the base of the person I already am into something even greater. I want a deeper relationship with God. Grow more in my walk with Christ to have a better understanding and relationship with the Holy Spirit than I do now.
  • I want to use my heart in ways greater than worrying about people who don’t care about me. Touch lives and inspire people to be better and give more. I want a strong, positive influential group of people surrounding me this year. People who push you to do better, and ones who are there even through the hard times.
  •  Instead of so many nights spent out having fun, where you’ll barely remember the night anyway. I want to spend more time doing things I enjoy, that I won’t forget about. Like spending my free time writing, going for walks, reading more, spending time in church, fellowship, or going to chase a sunset.
  • I want to love myself, the same way I want someone to love me. The level of respect I want to receive from someone else, is the same respect I want to show myself every single day. I don’t want to take a single moment for granted. I realize that life is short. I want to love with my whole heart, spend my time making a difference, and surround myself with the ones I love every chance I get. I want to stay true to myself, and who I am, no matter what. I believe honesty is the best gift one can ever give him/herself. Your life can only get better when you’re honest with yourself.
  • I am blessed to already have a great family (family goes beyond people you’re related to by blood), but I want to spend even more time together, not just during the holidays. Because in the end family always will be the most important thing. I don’t want to have hate in my heart for anyone. Even the people who have done me wrong, deserve happiness. I want to truly forgive and forget (learn to be “unoffendable”). Nobody is perfect and we all make mistakes sometimes. 
  •  I want to set real goals, and actually accomplish them. I want to chase my dreams, and never give up, no matter how many times life tries to knock me down. I want to remain driven (Focused), and not let anything stand in my way. I want to aim higher. To believe in myself so much that I feel like I can truly do anything I put my mind to with the assurance that God is always on my side.  

This is something for those who are so expectant to find love this year, not to burst your bubble tho. A new year is not a yardstick for measuring how soon you can find Mr. Right or Ms Right, No. There’s more to Love than just emotions — I believe it has more to do with purpose, God will give you someone you need rather than someone you want if only you’re patient. His best is worth waiting and praying for. So why don’t you stop spending any more time trying to find THAT PERSON, but rather to be THAT PERSON. Love isn’t something you can search for. It will happen when it’s meant to happen, a good kind of love can never be forced. So for now, instead of searching for that person, become that person.

So by this time next year, when I am once again reflecting on the year and thinking of another resolution for the following year, I hope I can honestly say that I followed the resolutions I set for myself. I hope I am the same me that I am today. I hope I still have my smile, more rooted in Christ, the same positive attitude, and the same love for life that I do now. But I also hope that I can look back on the year and honestly say that I’m an even better person than I was. 

“Because he has focused his love on me I will deliver him. I will protect him because he knows my name. When he calls out to me, I will be with him in distress. I will deliver him, and I will honor him.” (Psalm 91:14-15)  — Give this a try, put your focus on God this year.

Ps; these are my thoughts (resolutions) and might not necessarily work for you. Nevertheless, go into prayer and ask God to help you identify the loopholes in your life and also guide you to make the right resolutions that will help shape your life in order to see tangible progress. Stay blessed!