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Someone should have told me blogging wasn’t such an easy thing to do, because honestly I am the type who isn’t so open (trust me you’d have to go through so much just to get me to tell you what is going on with me) and here I am trying to share my life with you (total strangers and a few friends who don’t know me so well) but then at the back of mind is that scared little girl saying “don’t let them know too much”. I’m quite sure we all started the year with a lot positivism and hope. Well same goes for me, but then the past week has been very rough for me and I’ve been going through some down moments yet I’m hiding behind a smile when I can feel my heart hurting so much.

Each night I’d end up crying myself to sleep and that’s not much of a remedy because I’d be up again in an hour or less. So today at dawn I was up again, I decided to pray, in tears I managed to say “Father Lord please help me my heart hurts so much I can’t keep up why does it hurt so much? please help” And then He says “THANK ME” — I’m like God how? Imagine being hurt and going to your dad to report and he says thank me… Like How do I thank you when all I’m feeling is pain and hurt? After reflecting and thinking over and over again I said to myself let me thank him anyway He is God and he deserves more than that. Surprisingly on my way to work, the public transport I joined, a lady didn’t have enough money on her to pay the exact fare so after pleading with the mate countless times he agreed and took the little she had — sadly when she got off she didn’t thank him — he got so angry, complained bitterly till I got off (I am sure he complained till the last stop and probably won’t bother being kind to any passenger who found him/herself in the same situation). This has been the highlight of my day.

Usually a lot of disciplines come up when we (Christians) talk about becoming more like Jesus, things like prayer, Bible reading, fasting, soul winning (evangelizing), purity, long suffering, giving. What doesn’t come up enough  — and might have a bigger impact than we imagine — is developing an attitude of thanksgiving (gratitude). The word “gratitude” which means “thankfulness,” gratitude expresses deep, reciprocal appreciation for kindness received. Yesterday as I sat in church I wondered to myself; Why do we find it easy saying “thank you” to a friend because he/she gave us a gift yet forget to thank God every now and then.

The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters.He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over.Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever. (Psalm 23)

Yes Psalm 23 ( I remember we used to recite it every day during morning assembly in primary) It’s of no surprise that this is one of the most recognized passages in the Bible, I for one, have heard it countless times and the number of times that I have taken it for granted (Lord Have Mercy!). Meditating upon this all day I’m in awe — it’s beautiful, reassuring, and comforting. A total powerful reflection on God’s goodness.

Psalm 23 identifies many wonderful elements of God’s care that we might normally take for granted — or fail to recognize. David recognizes elements like God’s provision (I shall not want), spiritual renewal (he restores my soul), his discipline (your rod and staff, they comfort me), and his protection (you prepare me a table in the presence of my enemies)

We often take credit for precious moments of comfort, care, tranquility, and victory in our lives, but it’s important to recognize the loving hand of God’s providence in our lives. Everything happens because He allows it to happen.

23“He who offers a sacrifice of thanksgiving honors Me; And to him who orders his way aright I shall show the salvation of God (Psalm 50:23)

Thanksgiving is one of the most important elements of worship, give your thanks through worship ( I love worship, sometimes I’d feel myself trembling and weeping, sobbing — allowing myself to be vulnerable before God). Not only are we recognizing God for his amazing attributes like sovereignty and patience, we are learning to recognize their presence in our lives. This not only glorifies God, it trains us to be more aware of God’s care in our lives, even for the little things we take for granted daily, we don’t wake up by our strength, neither do we pay for the air we breathe.

You may probably not feel content where your life is right now or you wish things were different, you can still make the decision to be thankful. Thankfulness can make a big difference. Challenge yourself to a week of cultivating gratefulness. Start with a day, then 3 days before you know it, it’s a week already.

  • Before you get out of bed in the morning, thank God for three things in your life.
  • As you go through your day, recognize and vocalize gratitude for the traits and kindnesses of others.
  • At nightfall, offer up a prayer of thanksgiving for three challenges you’re experiencing or how your day went.

Develop the habit of thanking Him for both the Good and the bad. Give it a week and see how you feel. If you’re starting to see a difference, give it a month. It only takes about 21 days to make a habit. Stay Blessed!

Highly honored and privileged to give you thanks with my grateful heart words fail me, for both the good and bad my heart speaks for itself. Thank you Jesus. I am forever grateful.

Great Are You Lord. Good Good God.


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Often times when we hear the word “broke” our minds go straight to an empty pocket or something that loses its whole form and is in pieces or shattered lol not forgetting broken heart. But let’s do this together; imagine yourself holding a wine glass filled with wine and then in a blink it slips from your grip and it lands on the floor, how does it look? Broken pieces of glass right? Does it still look like the glass you want to drink from? So then my question is, does it mean you and I must look like the broken glass?

The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit;  A broken and a contrite heart, O God, You will not despise. (Psalm 51:17)

I believe brokenness has to do with God’s way of using trials, challenges, agony, pain and toil to reduce our outer man (canal man) in order for our inner man (spirit) to be renewed. Using myself as an example during my first year in school I used to find ways and means to run away right after service not that I wasn’t a Christian or a believer of the things of God but on that faithful Tuesday service of which I remember so vividly Ps. Jeffery Preached on Brokenness and as I sat in church I wondered to myself “was I broken?” Before service ended I believe I came to an understanding of what it meant to be broken; something just broke within me and I wept for several hours as to why I couldn’t find the right words to explain it and all my attempts to stop the tears failed my roommate back then described it as ‘weird’ yet there was this inner peace I felt.

Whenever someone said they lost a parent or a close relative I didn’t know how they must have felt till I experienced it myself; hearing of my dad’s death a few minutes before writing my research methods paper my legs went numb. Something broke within me cause anyone who knew the relationship I had with Him wondered if he was married to my mum or me yeah we were that close, well life sucks sometimes. Since then every situation or challenge I found myself in I believed, God like a farmer was tendering my soul like a plant for growth ( Honestly I didn’t know the significance of all the trials up until now). During these times I had some unanswered questions “1. Can God only bless someone after he hurts the person deeply, 2.Must I necessarily be broken before I can see God’s glory, 3. If he is truly God why cause his Child to suffer pain countless times?”

“As for you, son of man, groan with breaking heart and bitter grief, groan in their sight. ”And when they say to you, ‘Why do you groan?’ you shall say, ‘Because of the news that is coming; and every heart will melt, all hands will be feeble, every spirit will faint and all knees will be weak as water. Behold, it comes and it will happen,’ declares the Lord GOD.” (Ezekiel 21:6)

This scripture makes me realize that, God actually is not directly involved in hurting any one but, He often allows us to go to the depth of what we often want most in life; than to wait for His Divine Will. After we hurt ourselves countless times because of our pride, God reaches out to us by His Grace and Mercy to raise us back to the place of blessings He had predestined our lives to be before the creation of the world. Wow! Do you know what this means? This means that being broken by any circumstance life brings our way is useful in the sense that God will use them to magnify you. coming to that point of truth that in-spite of your flaws or brokenness God can still make something out of you

  1. So he said to them, “Out of the eater came something to eat, And out of the strong came something sweet.” (Judges 14:14)

So I’ll conclude by saying going through challenges doesn’t mean God is wicked but rather you enduring and prevailing through that pain and agony is a good report and a sure testimony. Hence nothing should reduce Christ in you. Instead holding onto His hands, standing strong and not comprehending. Brokenness shouldn’t leave you broken but rather it should be a phase that prepares you for restoration. Your moment of brokenness or isolation can serve a good purpose yes people may not want to associate themselves with you but trust God through that phase and press on… Father I pray for anyone who comes across this post and is hurting in one way or the other due to one challenge be it the loss of a loved one, a broken heart, loss of job, financial debts amongst many I pray you grant them grace and mercy to enable them go an extra day without giving up on themselves or their faith in you in JESUS NAME…AMEN