“AS YOUR MERCY AND GRACE DEMANDS”

I Will Run To You

Your eye is on the sparrow
And Your hand it comforts me
From the ends of the earth
To the depths of my heart
Let Your mercy and strength be seen

You call me to Your purpose
As angels understand
For Your glory may You draw all men
As Your love and grace demands

And I will run to You
To Your words of truth
Not by might not by power
But by the Spirit of God
Yes I will run the race
Til’ I see Your face
Oh let me live in the glory of Your grace

And I will run to You
To Your words of truth
Not by might not by power
But by the Spirit of God
Yes I will run the race
Til’ I see Your face
Oh let me live in the glory
Oh let me live in the glory
Please let me live in the glory of Your grace
And I will run to You
And I will run to You
Yes I will run to You


Growing up this was one of my favorite songs — still is, except for the fact that I know the right lyrics now — everybody lied about lyrics at some point right? For the past 7 weeks as we worship(I wrote this two weeks ago), we end service with this very song and God keeps taking me back to my childhood days. I share things I remember from my childhood because those memories are quite meaningful and point out how they relate to my life now. So much about the stories can be traced back to God working in my life, and sharing them, makes it evident that Jesus is real and intimately involved with us(Children).

Think back for a moment, when you were a little child. Did you ever wait at the door with excitement, just to run into your daddy’s arms when he came home from work? How badly did you want your mother to just carry you around. Feeling the warmth and safety, knowing all is well when they are with you. As little children we have a total dependence and trust in our parents, we simply believe they will do what we say. This is the exact imprint of belief God is calling us to as we develop our relationship with Jesus. He tells us numerous times in the gospels, “In order to experience me fully and completely you must become like a little child”— We are children of the Most High God.

He calls us  for this one simple reason, so we might become like little children; simple, free, trusting, dependent, risen, joyful, easy, uncomplicated, untainted and favored. He wants us to know that children live life freely from day to day. They never hold on to grudges, always forgiving (share your candy or toy with me so we make amends), living life, and open to new ideas. But now; there’s something at the back of your mind thinking about what someone said or did to you 10 years ago? Maybe you’re thinking, “I deserve better than this in life?”

Well, our lives began and end with the “Finished Work of Jesus“, in whom we have all things. That means the work on the cross covers the north, south, east, and west, nothing is left undone. We have security, simplicity, rest, satisfaction, power, trust, purity, freedom, just to name a few. This masterpiece was handcrafted and designed specifically for you to call your own, to simply receive. Childlike Faith believing we can be anything! Is your faith based on your timing and expectations? Or is it like that of a little child, where every ounce of your being stands on the finished work of Jesus Christ?

Lets take a look at the faith of one little girl, who changed the destiny of one powerful Syrian man. Naaman was the head honcho of the Syrian army. He had high favor with the king, but there was one challenge, he was a leper. Isn’t that just like us? We are in great need of our “Abba” Father(daddy). This purest form of love he richly lavished upon us, by sending forth his only son Jesus, to die on the cross, so we could experience high favor with the King all the time. Even though the Syrians did not worship our great Creator, they knew victory came from Israel’s God.

During a raid, they carried off a little girl from the land of Israel, and put her to work for Naaman’s wife. The little girl began to speak with great faith to the woman. “If my lord would be with the prophet (Elisha), he would cure him of leprosy.” A second time the same words of the little girl were now repeated to the king from Naaman. Still, a third time the same words of the little Israelite girl were repeated. And this time to Israel’s king. The news had traveled to Elisha about the great faith of the little girl. He told the king to send Naaman to him. Elisha told Naaman to wash in the Jordan 7 times. A simple, practical, childlike way of healing. “Go take a bath and you will be clean,” isn’t that just what our parents usually say to us(kids). That is just what Jesus did for us. He washed us with his purity, and made us white as snow.

Naaman didn’t like it one bit, he flared with rage! He was a powerful man. It should be a miraculous healing, right? Nope! His faithful young servants spoke to him with great faith. “My father, it is a great word the prophet has spoken to you, wash and be clean!” He finally dipped in the Jordan seven times. His whole being was restored and made new like that of a little child (2 Kings 5:1-19). How awesome is the Living God!

You know how frustrating it gets as a child — trying desperately to get your mother’s attention. Gently tugging at her cloth making her uncomfortable, calling out “Mama, Mama,” over and over again. She’ll finally stop whatever she’s doing, bend down to meet your gaze and carry you. Where am I getting with this?

Jesus is gently tugging at our hearts day and night, calling us to become like a little children and — “Run to Him” as His Mercy and Grace demands.

Stay blessed!

EXCELLENCE TAKES TIME

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Journeying through life — with, the busy schedules, trying to find purpose, what your ministry is, trying to get a career, working on a project, trying to get that degree, making that relationship work, trying to save a broken marriage or maybe picking up the pieces of your life after a divorce — Destiny. Perhaps you heard a word from God — but mind you, God gave several people the same word — so you might have the same vision with sister A or brother B to start a company but then it might not involve the same process — Sister A might need an office space whiles God wants you to start yours in the garage or the back yard of your house…PROCESS.

As developing children, especially during our youth, we often have a greater degree of neuroplasticity in comparison to adults. The brain’s neuroplasticity ensures it remains flexible enough throughout childhood, the ability to unlearn patterns of response and create new conditioning. Conditioning refers to our habitual response to event (so for instance if during your childhood you had dreams of becoming a doctor but growing and developing new interests you now want to become an engineer, adapt to the new dream)

There shall not any man be able to stand before thee all the days of thy life: as I was with Moses, so I will be with thee: I will not fail thee, nor forsake thee. (Joshua 1:5)

You have to read my previous post in order to understand this analogy. So if “God is going to be with you as He was with Moses does that mean you have to skip the Process? God’s presence doesn’t abort the process… The fact that God is going to be with you doesn’t mean you have to boycott the process. Process is usually an accumulation of boring days — routine — go to work(school, church) and come home, waking up the next morning, go through the same routine and it goes on and on — boring. Trust me going through the process isn’t fun but you know “People who win are people who don’t quit” You will win if you don’t quit“.

The steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord: and he delighteth in his way” (Psalm 37:23) The key word here is Steps. Why didn’t God say the Elevator? That is because steps here is significant to process — but we live in a generation where we want to sidestep(overlook) the “steps” just because we want to take the “elevator“. We want everything suddenly, right now, immediately, thinking if I don’t reach a certain level at a certain age then I might not reach it, if I don’t get married at a certain age then it might not happen at all — the I have to get it right and now.

We put so much pressure on ourselves, comparing our stories to what we see on social media and what we have in our minds, so you’re 23 and you’re already depressed about not being married yet, not having a car, a huge salary etc. Comparing our youth to things that a 50 year old has achieved. Forgetting that as children we must learn, through practical skills and strategies, to be aware of and label our emotions. Consequently acquiring a set of coping skills(patience, endurance) to enhance our well-being in times of challenges — to perform to our full potential. Growing through the process.

 “Beginnings don’t look like endings” Bishop TD Jakes

A lot of people shy away or abandon new beginnings because nobody recognizes greatness in a seed form. TD Jakes started preaching with less than 5 people as members yet he went through the process not knowing the bigger picture from then. I believe Jesus Christ went through a process too from the time He was born till the age of 12 there’s not much recorded in the Bible meaning He was at the background yet Training. If someone had told me I’d be blogging about Jesus today trust me I won’t believe the person. Somewhere in 2013 a friend Afia Kyei always said that whenever she read my status on whatsapp she will tell me she believes I’ll become a writer and most likely about the things of God lol let me save you from the response I always gave her. God had to take me through a phase before getting here. So Just like an oak tree doesn’t start like a tree, it start as an acorn, you should see an acorn it looks nothing like the tree, your partner may not be where he/she is supposed to be, maybe your career is not where it is supposed to be, maybe your finances(salary) is not where it is supposed to be — but just because all that hasn’t reached the opiate of success, does not mean you shouldn’t earnestly contend to reach the expected end as Jeremiah calls it (Jeremiah 29:11).  Trusting God that it is going to end right.

 “It takes time to be excellent” You can’t be a winner overnight…there’s a process.

So God is saying I am with you, I will not leave you nor forsake you; it does not mean He is excusing you from the process. So you just lost that job and God is saying “I am with you as I was with Moses” you failed that exam He says “I am with you” His presence is in the normal days we think are irrelevant. His presence is with you yet He still has to train you to get rid of all the irrelevant things that doesn’t conform to the purpose(plan) He has for you, He still has to prune your heart and sensibilities “Remember how the LORD your God led you all the way in the wilderness these forty years, to humble and test you in order to know what was in your heart, whether or not you would keep his commands” (Deutronomy 8:2) . Hence the wilderness is supposed to toughen you up for the coming Glory. 

My mum usually says “the greatness of marriage is not determined in a year” meaning the process counts. She said if you see a couple who have been together for 25 years and above — they are not superhuman but rather they were willing to go through the process that yields a long lasting marriage. Where am I getting with this? Excellence is not always harder, it just sometimes takes longer. Excellence is a way of thinking, being and doing life that is mindful of what needs to be done, when it needs to be done, how it needs to be done and even why it needs to be done. 

Whatever is worth doing is worth doing right and through a process. “Right doesn’t go to wrong, wrong comes to Right”

And He said, “My presence shall go with you, and I will give you rest.”(Exodus 33:14)

His Presence is in the Process.

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“Distinctively Similar”

There shall not any man be able to stand before thee all the days of thy life: as I was with Moses, so I will be with thee: I will not fail thee, nor forsake thee. (Joshua 1:5)

Earlier at dawn today, whiles listening to one of Bishop T.D Jakes’ sermons on Destiny Steps, God showed me something I’ve been doing wrong for the past few months. So I created this blog in October, I didn’t post anything until December — this was because I kept wondering if this was really what God wanted me to do and comparing what I write to other bloggers. A part of me was very sure yet after the first six posts I started having second thoughts about it — if He was the sole inspiration behind this, why then am I getting zero, two, five, ten and twenty-three views for my post. I started considering deleting the blog or not posting at all. I kept comparing my blog to a few others and telling myself I was not doing something right or perhaps the Holy Spirit was not backing whatever I was writing…COMPARISON.

Now back to the scripture up there, Joshua 1:5; I believe God is speaking to Joshua who was a men-tee of Moses saying “There shall not any man be able to stand before thee all the days of thy life: as I was with Moses, so I will be with thee: I will not fail thee, nor forsake thee.”  This is quite intense; that’s because God did some amazing stuff through Moses trust me I wish I was Moses at the red sea — hearing everyone complain just to raise my staff and then part the red sea, cool right? Yet Joshua never smote any rock that brought water. Meaning what worked for Moses didn’t work for Joshua.  I am not who inspired or trained me, else I’ll go and stand at the beach with a rod and try the same thing and say “Oh God you lied it didn’t work for me”. Meaning God is going to be with me just like He was with Moses but then I am NOT Moses. God is going to be with Me as He was with Moses, so I have to discover my own UNIQUENESS to accomplish my purpose. He will not do with me what He did with Sister A or Brother B.

Can you recognize God being with you to the same degree but then creating a new experience? A new story? God doesn’t do an on course, everything He does is a designers “Original”, in the sense that God and me can’t form the same coalition He and Moses formed(figuratively for other bloggers or anyone I compare myself to). I have to be willing to be “distinctively similar” He will be with me but then I have to be myself. His word says ” Behold I will do a new thing in you” (Isaiah 43:19) “for the former things are passed away” (Revelation 21:4) So now what do I keep and what do I let go of? To keep the promise of His Presence and let go of what I have in mind, that’s because God didn’t promise to do whatever I have in mind. God’s Promise is not a duplicate — the only similar thing is “I will be with you as I was with Moses” meaning He will never leave you, His presence goes with you day in day out. He won’t remove His presence from me.

You know how people leave(remove presence, forsake – emotionally abandon) you because you’re no longer useful to them or perhaps they don’t feel safe loving you.  God said whenever He is ready to get anything done or do a new thing in you, He will never leave nor forsake you meaning He will not emotionally abandon you because you disappointed Him. How many times do you love people who have wronged you? Naturally I tend to emotionally withdraw once I get hurt. I realized something that “We can’t cure anything we forsake” Perhaps you’ve withdrawn from people and things expecting things to get better it won’t get better once you forsake it. Yet God is saying “I will not leave you nor forsake you” knowing how flawed I am — meaning God is going to be my long term partner, simply My Ride or Die. Yet I am similar to Moses, I may not have everything He has but then I carry some of His features(The Presence Of God) The promise is centered on His Presence… 

If God is that committed to a flawed person… Can you hold on to a flawed dream? A suffering Business? A broken marriage? An imperfect partner? Or at the smell of trouble do you forsake your dream because it is tough?

You’re not Moses, But God is going to be with you as He was with Moses. You are “Distinctively”(UNIQUE) “Similar” (ALIKE). You Have a Unique Story don’t compare it to the person sitting close to you.

Please read and meditate on Joshua 1. My next post later today will be a continuation of this, God’s presence doesn’t abort the process… The fact that God is going to be with you doesn’t mean you have to boycott the process.

Stay blessed!

“Grace Came Through”

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I don’t know who you are, or why you are reading this page. I only know that for this moment, you’re reading it, and that is a very good thing…

I haven’t told anyone. No I wasn’t going to tell anyone (probably wanted to keep this as my tiny little secret). This private conversation with God was too tender and raw to share. Perhaps my life’s calling was about to take a sharp left turn. How do I recover from this latest blow of hurt and disappointment? For hours, I spilled out my concerns to Him — begging for answers and desperately wanting the gnawing pain in my heart to go away. Yet the pain was still there, very tangible… Depression set in and all I could think of was to end it all…

Somewhere in 2014, I lost one of the most valuable people in my life. I thought to myself; it was all over. I thought I had lost it all without having a taste of what it would have been like. Yes I was growing and still needed him around, in fact I think I still do. Was God really concerned? Was my life’s calling about to take a sharp left turn that I wasn’t prepared for? No more pampering, What happens to the plans of furthering my education? My dreams? My life was virtually shattered with that text message “sorry about your dad, my condolences”. I needed people. But did they even understand? No.

After a difficult experience, and it always seems easier to linger under the covers a little while longer. But what happens when that thought becomes your default? I grew bitter, I blamed God for taking my dad away (He took my little brother and sister away when I was little and now this? I was always going to church, serving and giving like every other believer. So why didn’t He prevent it? I allowed the devil play with my mind, I stopped going to church regularly, I became bitter and moody, my grades started to drop, the look of anger became my default, I didn’t like who I had become.

Now feeling like a mess, a failure,  I couldn’t hold it in, it seemed like just the right time, my room mates were not around. “Well, I might as well just end it all before they get back” I said to myself. (Yes I tried to commit suicide!) I still can’t explain how I got to that point but thank God whatever I mixed up to drink on that fateful Saturday slipped from my hands.

“I don’t know how I escaped this phase” I just know Grace came through.

My mind did a lot of wondering. Circumstances that produced full-on hot tears as I cried out to God in despair. Was God really concerned?  I knew God loved me, but honestly, I wasn’t feeling very loved at that moment. I felt as if Satan were throwing darts at me labeled: Forgotten. Invisible. Hopeless. Failure. Not good enough.

In an audible cry, I uttered these words; God, I can’t live like this, please take this pain, the heaviness in my heart away, this Christian life seems impossible to live unless you change my heart.  Give me a heart to love and desire you more than anything else in this world. I need you to take off this burden I don’t want to go on being bitter. Lord please set me free, renew my mind…some of the words got stuck in my throat the tears I couldn’t control”(Yes I still remember every single word) After this I begun to connect the dots ( not suddenly, but after some months)… If I loved God, then I would live for God and nothing else, yes I had lost my dad but then God still has a purpose for my life, I’ll live and declare the works of God — His plans are for my good. (Jeremiah 29:11).

     Suicide is not chosen; it happens
when pain exceeds
resources for coping with pain.

Sometimes you don’t even know how you sank into depression — perhaps all the measures you used to cope with the pain failed or the pain becomes greater than the resource for coping but mind you You can survive this.  That’s all! It’s about Survival. You are not a bad person, or crazy, or weak, or flawed, because you feel suicidal. It doesn’t even mean that you really want to die – it only means that you have more pain than you can cope with right now. If I start piling weights on your shoulders, you will eventually collapse if I add enough weights… no matter how much you want to remain standing. Willpower has nothing to do with it. Of course you would cheer yourself up, if you could.

Don’t accept it if someone tells you, “That’s not enough to be suicidal about.” There are many kinds of pain that may lead to suicide. Whether or not the pain is bearable may differ from person to person. What might be bearable to someone else, may not be bearable to you. The point at which the pain becomes unbearable depends on what kinds of coping resources you have. Individuals vary greatly in their capacity to withstand pain. I am not saying suicide is either wrong nor right; it is not a defect of character; it is morally neutral. 

Grace comes to them that ask. No matter how lost you are or the amount of pain you feel, find that strength to call on GRACE. You know, it’s that “merciful kindness by which God, exerting his holy influence upon souls, turns them to Christ, keeps, strengthens, increases them in Christian faith, knowledge, affection, and kindles them to the exercise of the Christian virtues“. He will receive you with open arms. You are still useful to God no matter how hopeless the situation you find yourself in seems. I want you to know that; God loves you the more when you’re feeling worthless. 

Ps; A suicidal person may not ask for help, but that doesn’t mean that help isn’t wanted. People who take their lives don’t want to die—they just want to stop hurting. Don’t add up by being judgmental, show more concern and love.

Grace Supersedes Everything.

Jesus Loves You.

Stay Blessed!

I CAN SENSE IT – TRANSITION

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Have you ever had to question if you were on the right path? Is this really what God wants for me? I sit in church, at work — in a cab, public transport (trotro) and wonder if the person sitting next to me can sense it too. The search for truth — the hunger and thirst for truth, there were times that I could shove it aside. I can’t seem to escape the voice of change. It haunts me until sleep takes over, but the amusing part is, it is waiting for me the moment I open my eyes. I try to drown it with music. Crowding it with the thoughts of doubt and disbelief — I don’t have to face it. It is easier running away from it than confronting it right? I don’t feel ready, Do I even have what it takes?

Sometimes I wish I could go back to being a little girl all over again. I remember way back when my biggest problem was whether I wanted to wear an already made dress, flower socks or a hat coupled with a bag to Sunday school — then I took the first hit staining that innocence — by reaching for things I made myself believe I needed. It’s called Growing up right?

Truth is, I am still dealing with the consequences of wrong choices and bad decisions from the past — I don’t know if I can risk another wrong turn. So I sit on the steps of my destiny too afraid to climb further, too exposed to go back.  I want to be the light that gives people hope to believe there is God but also without them realizing I have all these fears and scars. What if I fail at this? Perhaps overcoming this fear will reveal God’s divine purpose for my life. His sole inspiration for creating me

My mind has succeeded in convincing me that I must know the outcome of everything even before taking the first step. It makes me feel like I can’t handle what comes next. 

God can I at least have a sneak peek at my future before I get there? The bigger picture? At least a promise so that trusting can be a lot more easier. I wonder why God didn’t make my mountain easier to climb. I wish that He would give me the strength I see in others. Maybe that’s because I may not be able to handle the weakness that comes along with their strength. He places me in situations where I have to prove to myself what He’s known all along: I’ve got what it takes. And His word assures me that “My Presence will go with you, and I will give you rest.”(Exodus 33:14) He makes me go through the uncomfortable, digging deep, stretched within, facing my fears so that when I finally taste the victory of overcoming I won’t forget the preparation it took to get there. So even though I am scared, I’ll trust anyway.

Ever heard of broken miracles? But God hath chosen the foolish things of the world to confound the wise; and God hath chosen the weak things of the world to confound the things which are mighty;” ( 1 Corinthians 1:27). For some of us loving God can’t be achieved until we are willing to be broken in diverse ways and through that brokenness He blesses us. We get to remind the world that God can break you to bless others. There is beauty in Brokenness — Vulnerability is useful.

He says “his grace is sufficient” and that’s not cliche because he gives us grace on credit in order for our faith to be increased (2 Corinthians 12:9). The trials and challenges stretch our faith to that point of “Surrender“. Giving it all up to Him because everyone who promised not to fail, did at a point, except Him. He doesn’t compel anyone to move, He will not force you to worship Him — no our faith has a choice, a choice of free will. Surrendering to His will.

Suddenly coming to that realization; God is only shaking off mindsets, relationships, and opportunities that I should  never have clung unto in the first place. Throwing away the excuses, doubts, belief systems and subscribing to GRACE. Push myself, through the process, set boundaries, to have unprecedented discipline, obeying His commandments. I learnt at church that there are rewards reserved for those who obey and follow the ways of the Lord and are able to make the tough decisions not to compromise their faith(they are called the overcomers Revelations 3:12). Hence I am taking the steps of Submission. Obedience and Service.

Prayer

Dear Lord,  I am not ignorant of what you’re doing with me and I really don’t want to mess this up. I don’t want to make misdirection, interpreting and giving meaning to everything with my canal mind and get this wrong. Help me to hear you so clearly I don’t mistake Your voice for the enticing pleasures that come to distract me. Help me to uncover dimensions of myself I never knew existed. Show me who I really am not who I’m comfortable being. Take me out of my comfort zone, I need a nudge in the right direction, lead me with Your voice and protect me with Your hand. I want to go deeper with you even if it means I have to cut some things loose. I know that I’ve been reluctant with confronting this moment for reasons I can’t fully express, but I’m finally saying, lead the way for I am ready to obey, ready to embrace this change and all that comes along with it.  

“NOW GROW IN LOVE”

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I was reading something on “True Love” from the Lamp devotional, my mind went back to something I learnt when I visited ICGC at the beginning of this year. The man of God (Rev. Eastwood Anaba) made a statement; “If you want to know how much you love God then look at how you love your fellow human beings”. So then the question is, Do we really love God? Judging from how we love and relate to people. Our whole existence should be centered on love — because God is LOVE.

We doubt the strength of God’s grace and mercy. Perhaps we are too quick in taking offense, playing the blame game and we also speak love too late. Maybe if we focus more on showing the love of God, then we can embody the beauty of being in His will. Maybe unbelievers don’t believe that God is so loving because so many of us aren’t. We don’t even love ourselves talk of loving others. The only problem is you have to truly believe that and I don’t think you can until you experience it. I think unconditional love is buried underneath our shame, pain, and fear (vulnerability). Someone hurts you and it becomes so difficult to continue loving them as if they did you no wrong. Forgiving them should be easy, right?

I believe this is where we need His divine direction, right?

God will definitely show us how to love an imperfect person perfectly, right?

I believe we all need the merciful exposing spotlight of the Holy Spirit to illumine our levels of love (God bringing us into the awareness of His Love). We have no higher priorities in life than loving God with all our heart, soul, strength, and mind, as well as loving our neighbor as we love ourselves (Luke 10:27). We must prioritize the pursuit of those two loves. And if we’re reading the great commandments carefully, the words “all” and “as” should drop us to our knees. They are there to make us desperate for God.

This kind of desperation — utter helplessness — is what drives us to prayer. People who pray are people who know that apart from Christ they can do nothing (John 15:5). They seek to abide in him because they desperately need him. Christians don’t always — in fact, shouldn’t always — feel the emotion of desperation when they pray. Saints who learn to rest most in God’s promises have learned most profoundly how utterly they depend on God for everything. And how faithful He truly is.

None of us prayerfully presses into loving God with our entire beings, or loving our neighbor as ourselves, until we see clearly our profound lack of such love — how much we need to be filled with the Spirit of Christ in order to love like Christ. We will likely keep comparing ourselves against the low-bar of one another, and often feeling like we’re doing relatively okay, until we invite the Spirit of Jesus to examine us. His questions always penetrate deeper. “Do you love others as I have loved you?” “Do unbelievers know you are my disciple by the way you love the Christians I have given you to love?”

Do we really want to know how he views our love levels? He invites us to ask him, and he promises to answer us if we want to know (Luke 11:10). His answer may be devastating. But that will produce the prayerful desperation that brings the growth through Godly grief as stated in (2 Corinthians 7:10).

Whatever It Takes, Lord

I believe Jesus is serious about his commandment, perhaps more than we may think (John 13:34). He did not command us to love one another relatively well. He commanded us to love one another divinely well — to love as he loved.

Honestly, it does not matter that this is impossible for fallen human beings, for we have a God for whom all things are possible (Mark 10:27). And since the Father promises to give his Spirit to those who ask (Luke 11:13), let us ask boldly (Hebrews 4:16) and persistently (Luke 11:5–8)

Prayer

“Whatever it takes, Lord, increase my capacity to love until I love you with all my heart, soul, strength, and mind, and love my neighbor as I love myself”Finally I know must let go and leave behind old things and habits(past), new things I must learn to embrace, and the future (eternity) that I must prepare for. Give me the wisdom to know the difference and strength to forgive — open my arms to receive love and grow more in your love…Amen.

“New Year, New Me”


…indeed time does fly, 7 days down 2017 already. I have been quite observant about the festive season and also asked a few friends about their resolutions and expectations for 2017. The usual excitement about the new year, it’s fascinating phrase “New Year, New Me” and the idea of Cutting people off seems to be on the lips of most people. Why don’t we see the new year as a continual progress of our journey here on earth? Rather we set out so many unrealistic ideas about the new year. We want our lives to be like everything we see on TV and social media and in the process living out on purpose.

So every single year, with a new year approaching, you hear most people say “New Year, New Me” and I’m wondering how come you’re a new person each year yet there’s still no visible progress in your life? Is there really a new you every new year? Honestly, this is not a phrase that I want to live by. I don’t see the need to go and start changing everything about myself just because we’re entering a new year. Not that I am perfect, because by no means am I. But I actually like the person that I am, and I don’t have the desire to ‘change’ myself. Entering this new year I don’t want to change myself, I want to better myself. My ultimate new years resolution for 2017, is to become the best possible version of myself (according to God’s will) that I can be aside it being My Year of Divine Manifestation.

Although it really wouldn’t hurt to include getting a gym membership (which I already started a few days ago let’s hope I don’t give up on it), expanding my savings account, and ditching some old habits for my resolutions this year, those are not my main focus. I want to dig below the surface and focus on something that really is important, and that is myself. If I have learnt anything over this past year it is that the only person you can truly count on aside God, is yourself. I learned just how important it is to take care of yourself in 2016 (To constantly pick up yourself after every low moment pressing on and holding on to Christ). You are in control of your happiness, the way your life ends up, and the ultimate person that you are. 

I’m at a good place in my life, where I have a better understanding of who I am, and who God wants me to be. But I also know that there is always room for a little self improvement, and you will never stop growing as a person. Well, I am making a list of resolutions I want to live by to make sure I am the best possible version of myself this new year;

  • Speaking of growing as a person, I want this to be a year of growth. I want to grow from the base of the person I already am into something even greater. I want a deeper relationship with God. Grow more in my walk with Christ to have a better understanding and relationship with the Holy Spirit than I do now.
  • I want to use my heart in ways greater than worrying about people who don’t care about me. Touch lives and inspire people to be better and give more. I want a strong, positive influential group of people surrounding me this year. People who push you to do better, and ones who are there even through the hard times.
  •  Instead of so many nights spent out having fun, where you’ll barely remember the night anyway. I want to spend more time doing things I enjoy, that I won’t forget about. Like spending my free time writing, going for walks, reading more, spending time in church, fellowship, or going to chase a sunset.
  • I want to love myself, the same way I want someone to love me. The level of respect I want to receive from someone else, is the same respect I want to show myself every single day. I don’t want to take a single moment for granted. I realize that life is short. I want to love with my whole heart, spend my time making a difference, and surround myself with the ones I love every chance I get. I want to stay true to myself, and who I am, no matter what. I believe honesty is the best gift one can ever give him/herself. Your life can only get better when you’re honest with yourself.
  • I am blessed to already have a great family (family goes beyond people you’re related to by blood), but I want to spend even more time together, not just during the holidays. Because in the end family always will be the most important thing. I don’t want to have hate in my heart for anyone. Even the people who have done me wrong, deserve happiness. I want to truly forgive and forget (learn to be “unoffendable”). Nobody is perfect and we all make mistakes sometimes. 
  •  I want to set real goals, and actually accomplish them. I want to chase my dreams, and never give up, no matter how many times life tries to knock me down. I want to remain driven (Focused), and not let anything stand in my way. I want to aim higher. To believe in myself so much that I feel like I can truly do anything I put my mind to with the assurance that God is always on my side.  

This is something for those who are so expectant to find love this year, not to burst your bubble tho. A new year is not a yardstick for measuring how soon you can find Mr. Right or Ms Right, No. There’s more to Love than just emotions — I believe it has more to do with purpose, God will give you someone you need rather than someone you want if only you’re patient. His best is worth waiting and praying for. So why don’t you stop spending any more time trying to find THAT PERSON, but rather to be THAT PERSON. Love isn’t something you can search for. It will happen when it’s meant to happen, a good kind of love can never be forced. So for now, instead of searching for that person, become that person.

So by this time next year, when I am once again reflecting on the year and thinking of another resolution for the following year, I hope I can honestly say that I followed the resolutions I set for myself. I hope I am the same me that I am today. I hope I still have my smile, more rooted in Christ, the same positive attitude, and the same love for life that I do now. But I also hope that I can look back on the year and honestly say that I’m an even better person than I was. 

“Because he has focused his love on me I will deliver him. I will protect him because he knows my name. When he calls out to me, I will be with him in distress. I will deliver him, and I will honor him.” (Psalm 91:14-15)  — Give this a try, put your focus on God this year.

Ps; these are my thoughts (resolutions) and might not necessarily work for you. Nevertheless, go into prayer and ask God to help you identify the loopholes in your life and also guide you to make the right resolutions that will help shape your life in order to see tangible progress. Stay blessed!