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Often times we limit the power of the Holy Spirit and His abilities without giving Him a chance to work on us — we go round in circles looking for answers and remedies to our sicknesses ( cancer, stroke, brain tumor, scoliosis etc) frustrations, bitterness, emotional wounds, abuse both physically and verbally and it goes on and on. Our own ways and self prescriptions only do us more harm than good. But then I believe Jesus can heal all that and more look at he woman with the issue of blood (Mark 5:25–34, Matthew 9:20–22, Luke 8:43–48), this should tell us that healing goes beyond just a headache or migraine. Jesus seeks to make you whole.

19 Many are the afflictions of the righteous: but the Lord delivereth him out of them all (Psalm 34:19) – simply put Jesus can deliver you from anything.

I bumped into an old friend yesterday — whiles catching up I was lead to ask about her mum —  her facial expression changed  from excitement to disgust in just a second. The happiness in her eyes disappeared immediately because of some words her mother had said to her — to the extent that she had doubts about her being her biological mother. I got really sad listening to her say those words — a part of me understood how she was feeling, simply because the way a parent perceives and talks to his or her child becomes the child’s inner voice — and also because I had experienced verbal abuse personally except that it was not my mum. 

I believe words have power and can manifest in ways you don’t even imagine, the bible says in Proverb 18:21 “Death and life are in the power of the tongue, and those who love it will eat its fruits.” Some words that were said to you so many years back are still imprinted on your mind because of the depth of pain it caused you when you heard them. I have a thing for words —  unfortunately, I have found myself in situations where I got verbally abused to the extent of doubting my self worth. I got trapped in my own silence, I started experiencing identity crisis. Those words re-echo in my head countless times and I feel worse. Truth is all I was craving for was to be loved and appreciated in a way that only God knows how — hence no matter whom I confided in thinking they could help, nothing was able to fix how much pain I was feeling.

But then guess what? My inner healing occurred on my knees—all I needed to do was go back to the cross, I cried out to the Lord.  It didn’t happen in a day, but the bottom line is this: I am healed. I was healed by the Presence of Jesus. (Yes, He can do same for you) I had to come to an understanding that maybe the very people who hurt or broke me with those words might have been broken one way or the other — so my best physician had to be JESUS The Only One who never lost a patient.  My experience of weakness has been admittedly frustrating at times, but it has also been, by God’s good and gracious design, very beneficial for me and others. I believe God is pleased to use our various kinds of weaknesses and limitations to remind us of important truths and refine our trust in him. 

When we get healed we are so quick to forget, and go back to our daily routines, when things are going well, we are tempted to forget how dependent we are upon God for everything (Deuteronomy 6:10–12). Good salaries, ministry success, healthy bodies, or a charming personality can become the horses and chariots in which we put our trust (Psalm 20:7). When our weakness should reminds us that we depend on God and His providence for life(breath), we find joy simply in knowing that we live by His Grace.

Maybe yours has to do with something your dad/mum said to you whiles you were growing up, something your current boyfriend keeps saying to you, or something your boss said or whoever may have said or done to hurt you. No matter what that infirmity may be — I am here to tell you JESUS CAN AND WILL HEAL YOU  — so I need you to shake it off and walk in what you believe — you were wonderfully made, you’re God’s perfect creation and nothing anyone says to you defines you. Yes, it’s not that easy but trust me just let it go and believe in your true identity (How God sees you and witness the difference)

Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in your sight, O Lord, my rock and my redeemer (Psalm 19:14). Let no corrupting talk come out of your mouths, but only such as is good for building up, as fits the occasion, that it may give grace to those who hear. (Ephesians 4:29) In the same manner that you dislike what someone did to you — you train your tongue not to go around doing same. This scripture gave my mind a new thinking  — in the sense that, I owe it to myself and whoever comes into contact with me to be verbally good to them. Teaching my mouth the habit of speaking good and positive things into their lives.


Dear Lord thank you for your mercies and grace that are made new every morning unto us. Thank you for your blood that makes the shattered whole. I pray and commit anyone reading this into thy healing arms that is able to make every broken thing whole. Heal him/her from any hurt or pain be it physical, emotional or spiritual grant unto him/her a renewed heart, mind, body and soul to live according to your will in Jesus Name…Amen.


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During corporate worship, God works by His Spirit in a special way, which is why gathering to sing and worship together is so important. But then the gathered body of Christ represents an incredible array of experiences. Different people, different hopes and dreams, different fears and insecurities, different struggles and temptations.  No two people in those pews are exactly the same. Every one is unique, and in the same manner we must all yearn for personal encounters when it comes to worship —corporate worship will be of no value to you if you do not have an individual understanding and encounter of worship, 

The apostle Paul described the corporate singing of God’s people as one of the primary ways the Spirit of God works in our hearts: 18 Do not get drunk on wine, which leads to reckless indiscretion. Instead, be filled with the Spirit. 19. Speak to one another with psalms, hymns, and spiritual songs. Sing and make music in your hearts to the Lord…” (Ephesians 5:18-19). Our worship life should be filled with the Holy Spirit. You’d agree with me that as little children our interest in the things of God is worth admiring (mine was to always hide in closets and under beds to cry whenever I came back from Sunday school because my teacher told me Jesus was nailed to the cross and there was blood and he died for me) whenever my mum or any one caught me there I’d say I am crying for Jesus — but that changes as we grow. Personally I’ll admit that at a point, I hesitated to treat manifestations as being the result of encountering the Holy Spirit. 

I was part of the youth choir at Perez chapel a few years back(then known as world miracle international) I’d sit somewhere in the congregation instead of joining the choir on stage to minister, during worship, I’ll hold myself from lifting my hands or expressing myself because there’s probably a cute guy sitting close to me and I don’t want him to think I am too Holy (lol I doubt I am the only culprit) there was something missing about my worship. However, when I joined the Harvest Gospel Choir back on campus I made a conscious effort by asking God to help me and also telling myself “I wasn’t going to repeat those naive mistakes again” (I started taking my worship life seriously). Where am I getting with this?

We see the exact things happening all around us especially in church — and this is because most people resist the move of the Holy spirit because it may mean losing control and doing things like swooning, shaking, growling or fainting. It’s like saying, “God, I hope no one from my neighborhood (that particular guy or lady you have a crush on) sees me here, cause of the fear of they telling everyone how weird or what kind of a wacko I’ve become — they might even end up thinking I am a witch or probably being delivered” 

Well, thank God for grace I am no longer fazed by all that — to worship is my safe place, a place where I can lay my vulnerability at his feet without holding back. In an encounter with God, the only reaction worth having is one of breaking down and surrendering to God. In fact, it would be hard to picture how it would happen. Given the rank of the One (God) we’re talking about (some do it with tears, some kneeling, some rolling, some just lying prostrate), anyway who cares what they say about your worship? Bottom line is our emotions must go crazy in such an encounter.

“Our worship on Sunday morning doesn’t meet a need in God. It meets a need in us.” — God Does not need you or me in order for Him to be God, because if we choose not to worship God, He will still be God. It is beneficial for us to worship him. We must learn to stop approaching worship as if we are doing Him a favor.

“The God who made the world and everything in it, being Lord of heaven and earth, does not live in temples made by man, nor is he served by human hands, as though he needed anything, since he himself gives to all mankind life and breath and everything.” (Acts 17:24–25)

Simply put, God does not need you or me to be God. He is not insecure that he created you and I to worship rather He is altogether self-sufficient, dependent on no one. He is, in fact, the one who is responsible for the existence and preservation of all life, yours and mine. Therefore, he cannot be “served” as if he were needy or exhausted or weak or lacking something that only you and I or the people of your church or choir can supply. To worship God is to give Him our love, reverence, service, and devotion. The Lord commanded Moses;

“Worship God, for him only shalt thou serve” (Moses 1:15) He has also commanded,

“Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, with all thy might, mind, and strength; and in the name of Jesus Christ thou shalt serve him” (Deu 6:5).

Worship not only shows our love for God (genuinely based on how we feel) and our commitment to Him, it gives us strength to keep His commandments. Through worship we grow in knowledge and faithfulness. If we place any person or thing above the love of God, we worship that thing or person. This is called idolatry (Exodus 20:3-6). I pray this helps someone make a decision not to be distracted in his/her worship life

(My thoughts on) How to Worship 

  • I love music a lot (there’s always some music playing no matter what I am doing) and that is one of the ways to worship. Listening to worship songs
  • Prayer is one way to worship (Sometimes the music is playing, yet all you can do is pray and speak in the language of the spirit and that is equally worship)
  • You can also worship by studying the word and meditating on them. Also by listening to recorded messages or sermons (Personally I  listen to sermons from the Archbishop N. Duncan Williams, Rev. Eastwood-Anaba, Pastor Prince, TD Jakes, Heather Lindsey, Toure Roberts, etc) 
  • Another way of worshiping is through fellowship (“For where two or three have gathered together in My name, I am there in their midst” Matthew 18:20)

True worship is not limited to one day of the week, it is a daily habit. Most importantly there should be a personal desire to worship and with this desire God will enable you through the move of the Holy Spirit.


Lord Jesus, thank you for your grace and mercies that we share in day in and day out. We come before you admitting that we can not worship you based on our own understanding, hence grant unto us grace that there may be a renewal of hearts and minds with regards to how we worship, we ask that you send forth your Holy spirit to transform and enable us through grace to willingly let ourselves go and  focus more on you during worship be it corporately and individually, Let our Love for worship grow more and more in you in Jesus name. Amen



“Grace Came Through”

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I don’t know who you are, or why you are reading this page. I only know that for this moment, you’re reading it, and that is a very good thing…

I haven’t told anyone. No I wasn’t going to tell anyone (probably wanted to keep this as my tiny little secret). This private conversation with God was too tender and raw to share. Perhaps my life’s calling was about to take a sharp left turn. How do I recover from this latest blow of hurt and disappointment? For hours, I spilled out my concerns to Him — begging for answers and desperately wanting the gnawing pain in my heart to go away. Yet the pain was still there, very tangible… Depression set in and all I could think of was to end it all…

Somewhere in 2014, I lost one of the most valuable people in my life. I thought to myself; it was all over. I thought I had lost it all without having a taste of what it would have been like. Yes I was growing and still needed him around, in fact I think I still do. Was God really concerned? Was my life’s calling about to take a sharp left turn that I wasn’t prepared for? No more pampering, What happens to the plans of furthering my education? My dreams? My life was virtually shattered with that text message “sorry about your dad, my condolences”. I needed people. But did they even understand? No.

After a difficult experience, and it always seems easier to linger under the covers a little while longer. But what happens when that thought becomes your default? I grew bitter, I blamed God for taking my dad away (He took my little brother and sister away when I was little and now this? I was always going to church, serving and giving like every other believer. So why didn’t He prevent it? I allowed the devil play with my mind, I stopped going to church regularly, I became bitter and moody, my grades started to drop, the look of anger became my default, I didn’t like who I had become.

Now feeling like a mess, a failure,  I couldn’t hold it in, it seemed like just the right time, my room mates were not around. “Well, I might as well just end it all before they get back” I said to myself. (Yes I tried to commit suicide!) I still can’t explain how I got to that point but thank God whatever I mixed up to drink on that fateful Saturday slipped from my hands.

“I don’t know how I escaped this phase” I just know Grace came through.

My mind did a lot of wondering. Circumstances that produced full-on hot tears as I cried out to God in despair. Was God really concerned?  I knew God loved me, but honestly, I wasn’t feeling very loved at that moment. I felt as if Satan were throwing darts at me labeled: Forgotten. Invisible. Hopeless. Failure. Not good enough.

In an audible cry, I uttered these words; God, I can’t live like this, please take this pain, the heaviness in my heart away, this Christian life seems impossible to live unless you change my heart.  Give me a heart to love and desire you more than anything else in this world. I need you to take off this burden I don’t want to go on being bitter. Lord please set me free, renew my mind…some of the words got stuck in my throat the tears I couldn’t control”(Yes I still remember every single word) After this I begun to connect the dots ( not suddenly, but after some months)… If I loved God, then I would live for God and nothing else, yes I had lost my dad but then God still has a purpose for my life, I’ll live and declare the works of God — His plans are for my good. (Jeremiah 29:11).

     Suicide is not chosen; it happens
when pain exceeds
resources for coping with pain.

Sometimes you don’t even know how you sank into depression — perhaps all the measures you used to cope with the pain failed or the pain becomes greater than the resource for coping but mind you You can survive this.  That’s all! It’s about Survival. You are not a bad person, or crazy, or weak, or flawed, because you feel suicidal. It doesn’t even mean that you really want to die – it only means that you have more pain than you can cope with right now. If I start piling weights on your shoulders, you will eventually collapse if I add enough weights… no matter how much you want to remain standing. Willpower has nothing to do with it. Of course you would cheer yourself up, if you could.

Don’t accept it if someone tells you, “That’s not enough to be suicidal about.” There are many kinds of pain that may lead to suicide. Whether or not the pain is bearable may differ from person to person. What might be bearable to someone else, may not be bearable to you. The point at which the pain becomes unbearable depends on what kinds of coping resources you have. Individuals vary greatly in their capacity to withstand pain. I am not saying suicide is either wrong nor right; it is not a defect of character; it is morally neutral. 

Grace comes to them that ask. No matter how lost you are or the amount of pain you feel, find that strength to call on GRACE. You know, it’s that “merciful kindness by which God, exerting his holy influence upon souls, turns them to Christ, keeps, strengthens, increases them in Christian faith, knowledge, affection, and kindles them to the exercise of the Christian virtues“. He will receive you with open arms. You are still useful to God no matter how hopeless the situation you find yourself in seems. I want you to know that; God loves you the more when you’re feeling worthless. 

Ps; A suicidal person may not ask for help, but that doesn’t mean that help isn’t wanted. People who take their lives don’t want to die—they just want to stop hurting. Don’t add up by being judgmental, show more concern and love.

Grace Supersedes Everything.

Jesus Loves You.

Stay Blessed!


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I’m guessing you are familiar with the story of RUTH in the Bible — that’s if I’m right. It has been called the most beautiful short story ever written. Studying the book of Ruth, all these amazing attributes — Lol wait, why did my parents name me Ruth? — first off, I am nothing like Her. Yes, I’ve been disobedient and gone contrary to God’s commandments. Stained innocence with a good heart — but just like the story of Ruth I believe there’s redemption in Christ Jesus.

Every event related back to Naomi; her husband’s and sons’ deaths, her daughters-in-law, her return to Bethlehem, her God, her relative, Boaz, her land to sell, and her progeny —  the story views “God through the eyes of a woman.” Naomi has been compared to a female Job. She lost everything: home, husband, and sons—and even more than Job did—her livelihood. She joined the lowest ranks of Israelites: the poor and the widowed. She cried out in her grief and neglected to see the gift that God placed in her path—Ruth.

The story of Ruth shows the blessings that obedience can bring. It shows the Israelites the loving, faithful nature of their God. This story demonstrates that God responds to His people’s cry. He practices what He preaches, so to speak. Watching Him provide for Naomi and Ruth, two widows with little prospects for a future, we learn that He cares for the outcasts of society just as He asks us to do (Jeremiah 22:16; James 1:27).


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Ruth embodied loyal love. Her moving vow of loyalty (Ruth 1:16–17), though obviously not marital in nature, it tells us the depths of devotion new couples must aspire for in marriages. The book reveals the extent of God’s grace—He accepted Ruth into His chosen people and honored her with a role in continuing the family line into which His appointed king, David, and later His Son, Jesus, would be born (Matthew 1:1, 5).

Ruth had an open mind and a teachable spirit, so she listened to her mother-in-law and took her advice (Ruth 3:2-5). Ruth followed Naomi’s instructions to the letter; she trusted the Lord, and He rewarded her faithfulness by giving her not only a husband, but a son (Obed), a grandson (Jesse), and a great-grandson named David, the king of Israel (Ruth 4:17). Besides these gifts (Psalm 127:3), God gave Ruth the blessing of being listed in the lineage of Jesus (Matthew 1:5).


The book of Ruth came along during a time of irresponsible living in Israel and appropriately called the people back to a greater responsibility and faithfulness before God — even in difficult times. This call applies just as clearly to this generation. The issue of obedience is very much relevant today. Obedience in everyday life pleases God. Meaning — When I reflect His character through my interactions with others, I bring glory to Him. Ruth’s sacrifice and hard work to provide for Naomi reflected God’s love — God’s faithfulness. Naomi’s plan for Ruth’s future reflected selfless love. My life should depict God’s Love(Selflessness) and faithfulness(Loyalty)

Ruth is an example of how God can change a life and take it in a direction He has foreordained, and we see Him working out His perfect plan in Ruth’s life, just as He does with all His children (Romans 8:28). Although Ruth came from a pagan background in Moab, once she met the God of Israel, she became a living testimony to Him by faith. Even though she lived in humble circumstances before marrying Boaz, she believed that God was faithful to care for His people. Also, Ruth is an example to us that God rewards faithfulness: “And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him” (Hebrews 11:6).  Meaning God can do same for anyone who “Obeys” and has faith. God’s Word stands for all eternity.

God has never failed to care and provide for His children loving and faithful. Like Ruth and Boaz, we are called to respond to that divine grace in faithful obedience, in spite of the godless culture(world) in which we live. Stir up in me cravings to yield and obey you more, with the help of Grace. “For where you go, I will go” (Ruth 1:6). Desperate and more than willing to take this path but the question is — Are you willing?

Samuel said,”Has the LORD as much delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices As in obeying the voice of the LORD? Behold, to obey is better than sacrifice, And to heed than the fat of rams.(1 Samuel 15:22)

Hope of a life Spent with You

Purity Is Possible

Stay Blessed!


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I didn’t quite choose the path of obedience, talking my way out of every situation especially when these little fears creep up. Walking into every gathering self consciously, wondering if that stare was for me, don’t be deceived I wasn’t so confident. I remember being in a rush to have a taste of what being a “grown up” was like — experimenting things that didn’t leave me chaste, bad decisions so I dealt with them by covering up.  A few boy issues that I didn’t quite deal with properly, carrying the luggage of verbal abuse as a reminder but on the contrary that is too burdensome.

Had my fair share of struggles and still growing through them just like going through the wilderness so I’m guessing all I need is endurance. Trying to be the light but the guilt from the past and insecurities stare at me in the face — and there is my circle of people with their huge “expectations” of me — seeking validation. Perceiving myself to be so broken why will God even use me? I’m so messed up He can’t use me. Grace? Yet in the midst of all this I am still battling with Trusting Him…How do I do it?

Then comes “Destiny” revealing God’s original intent for bringing me forth. That underlying question we all have deep down inside. The mystery that unfolds His purpose for my life. But didn’t they say faith comes with being CHOSEN; If He called me to it, He’s going to bring me through it right? Hence I can no longer live in my feelings anymore; to do or not to do things just because I feel or do not feel like respectively. How uncomfortable am I willing to be for God? Beyond Emotions?

Truth is it might just be me and Him in this season thus anything that threatens to drown me from hearing from God or distract me from what He’s doing I must be willing to do away with(cut off). I don’t want to be counting on people to give me something I know only God can give — I might as well endure the stretch that comes with growth. The confusion that comes with the process — it is all coming together.

I can’t meet everyone’s approval before igniting the flame that God is trying to spark up in my life. Perhaps I don’t necessarily need people’s validation in order to be authentic but I actually need God’s hand on my life and His voice so that I can be everything He wants me to be and all I need is my willingness to yield. I don’t need to live in the parameters of my insecurities any longer. I have all the strength it takes “He gives power to the weak, And to those who have no might He increases strength” (Isaiah 40:29) So I’ll survive again, and again, and again — perhaps each time I survive, I may be teaching someone they can survive too by trusting God.

Willingly taking the path of being uncomfortable for God, to sacrifice, taking up that cross – without giving up to the end. Insights about my purpose will open through this stretch.

Hope of a Life Spent With You.


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Have you ever had to question if you were on the right path? Is this really what God wants for me? I sit in church, at work — in a cab, public transport (trotro) and wonder if the person sitting next to me can sense it too. The search for truth — the hunger and thirst for truth, there were times that I could shove it aside. I can’t seem to escape the voice of change. It haunts me until sleep takes over, but the amusing part is, it is waiting for me the moment I open my eyes. I try to drown it with music. Crowding it with the thoughts of doubt and disbelief — I don’t have to face it. It is easier running away from it than confronting it right? I don’t feel ready, Do I even have what it takes?

Sometimes I wish I could go back to being a little girl all over again. I remember way back when my biggest problem was whether I wanted to wear an already made dress, flower socks or a hat coupled with a bag to Sunday school — then I took the first hit staining that innocence — by reaching for things I made myself believe I needed. It’s called Growing up right?

Truth is, I am still dealing with the consequences of wrong choices and bad decisions from the past — I don’t know if I can risk another wrong turn. So I sit on the steps of my destiny too afraid to climb further, too exposed to go back.  I want to be the light that gives people hope to believe there is God but also without them realizing I have all these fears and scars. What if I fail at this? Perhaps overcoming this fear will reveal God’s divine purpose for my life. His sole inspiration for creating me

My mind has succeeded in convincing me that I must know the outcome of everything even before taking the first step. It makes me feel like I can’t handle what comes next. 

God can I at least have a sneak peek at my future before I get there? The bigger picture? At least a promise so that trusting can be a lot more easier. I wonder why God didn’t make my mountain easier to climb. I wish that He would give me the strength I see in others. Maybe that’s because I may not be able to handle the weakness that comes along with their strength. He places me in situations where I have to prove to myself what He’s known all along: I’ve got what it takes. And His word assures me that “My Presence will go with you, and I will give you rest.”(Exodus 33:14) He makes me go through the uncomfortable, digging deep, stretched within, facing my fears so that when I finally taste the victory of overcoming I won’t forget the preparation it took to get there. So even though I am scared, I’ll trust anyway.

Ever heard of broken miracles? But God hath chosen the foolish things of the world to confound the wise; and God hath chosen the weak things of the world to confound the things which are mighty;” ( 1 Corinthians 1:27). For some of us loving God can’t be achieved until we are willing to be broken in diverse ways and through that brokenness He blesses us. We get to remind the world that God can break you to bless others. There is beauty in Brokenness — Vulnerability is useful.

He says “his grace is sufficient” and that’s not cliche because he gives us grace on credit in order for our faith to be increased (2 Corinthians 12:9). The trials and challenges stretch our faith to that point of “Surrender“. Giving it all up to Him because everyone who promised not to fail, did at a point, except Him. He doesn’t compel anyone to move, He will not force you to worship Him — no our faith has a choice, a choice of free will. Surrendering to His will.

Suddenly coming to that realization; God is only shaking off mindsets, relationships, and opportunities that I should  never have clung unto in the first place. Throwing away the excuses, doubts, belief systems and subscribing to GRACE. Push myself, through the process, set boundaries, to have unprecedented discipline, obeying His commandments. I learnt at church that there are rewards reserved for those who obey and follow the ways of the Lord and are able to make the tough decisions not to compromise their faith(they are called the overcomers Revelations 3:12). Hence I am taking the steps of Submission. Obedience and Service.


Dear Lord,  I am not ignorant of what you’re doing with me and I really don’t want to mess this up. I don’t want to make misdirection, interpreting and giving meaning to everything with my canal mind and get this wrong. Help me to hear you so clearly I don’t mistake Your voice for the enticing pleasures that come to distract me. Help me to uncover dimensions of myself I never knew existed. Show me who I really am not who I’m comfortable being. Take me out of my comfort zone, I need a nudge in the right direction, lead me with Your voice and protect me with Your hand. I want to go deeper with you even if it means I have to cut some things loose. I know that I’ve been reluctant with confronting this moment for reasons I can’t fully express, but I’m finally saying, lead the way for I am ready to obey, ready to embrace this change and all that comes along with it.  


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I was reading something on “True Love” from the Lamp devotional, my mind went back to something I learnt when I visited ICGC at the beginning of this year. The man of God (Rev. Eastwood Anaba) made a statement; “If you want to know how much you love God then look at how you love your fellow human beings”. So then the question is, Do we really love God? Judging from how we love and relate to people. Our whole existence should be centered on love — because God is LOVE.

We doubt the strength of God’s grace and mercy. Perhaps we are too quick in taking offense, playing the blame game and we also speak love too late. Maybe if we focus more on showing the love of God, then we can embody the beauty of being in His will. Maybe unbelievers don’t believe that God is so loving because so many of us aren’t. We don’t even love ourselves talk of loving others. The only problem is you have to truly believe that and I don’t think you can until you experience it. I think unconditional love is buried underneath our shame, pain, and fear (vulnerability). Someone hurts you and it becomes so difficult to continue loving them as if they did you no wrong. Forgiving them should be easy, right?

I believe this is where we need His divine direction, right?

God will definitely show us how to love an imperfect person perfectly, right?

I believe we all need the merciful exposing spotlight of the Holy Spirit to illumine our levels of love (God bringing us into the awareness of His Love). We have no higher priorities in life than loving God with all our heart, soul, strength, and mind, as well as loving our neighbor as we love ourselves (Luke 10:27). We must prioritize the pursuit of those two loves. And if we’re reading the great commandments carefully, the words “all” and “as” should drop us to our knees. They are there to make us desperate for God.

This kind of desperation — utter helplessness — is what drives us to prayer. People who pray are people who know that apart from Christ they can do nothing (John 15:5). They seek to abide in him because they desperately need him. Christians don’t always — in fact, shouldn’t always — feel the emotion of desperation when they pray. Saints who learn to rest most in God’s promises have learned most profoundly how utterly they depend on God for everything. And how faithful He truly is.

None of us prayerfully presses into loving God with our entire beings, or loving our neighbor as ourselves, until we see clearly our profound lack of such love — how much we need to be filled with the Spirit of Christ in order to love like Christ. We will likely keep comparing ourselves against the low-bar of one another, and often feeling like we’re doing relatively okay, until we invite the Spirit of Jesus to examine us. His questions always penetrate deeper. “Do you love others as I have loved you?” “Do unbelievers know you are my disciple by the way you love the Christians I have given you to love?”

Do we really want to know how he views our love levels? He invites us to ask him, and he promises to answer us if we want to know (Luke 11:10). His answer may be devastating. But that will produce the prayerful desperation that brings the growth through Godly grief as stated in (2 Corinthians 7:10).

Whatever It Takes, Lord

I believe Jesus is serious about his commandment, perhaps more than we may think (John 13:34). He did not command us to love one another relatively well. He commanded us to love one another divinely well — to love as he loved.

Honestly, it does not matter that this is impossible for fallen human beings, for we have a God for whom all things are possible (Mark 10:27). And since the Father promises to give his Spirit to those who ask (Luke 11:13), let us ask boldly (Hebrews 4:16) and persistently (Luke 11:5–8)


“Whatever it takes, Lord, increase my capacity to love until I love you with all my heart, soul, strength, and mind, and love my neighbor as I love myself”Finally I know must let go and leave behind old things and habits(past), new things I must learn to embrace, and the future (eternity) that I must prepare for. Give me the wisdom to know the difference and strength to forgive — open my arms to receive love and grow more in your love…Amen.